03 2018 : Dissolving The Fear, Finding Your Own Beauty for Balearic Social Radio

I’m doing a monthly residency for Andy Pye’s Balearic Social Radio and I was half way through curating this mix when I heard the very sad news that the cosmology we share had lost another bright star.

The mix then took on a deeper and more melancholy over jacket, my mind wandered into darkness and loss.

It was aired on a snowy March morning.

Ode to Nathan

For nearly a quarter of a century you have been a part of my life. From Colchester you came, you young beautiful thing, to Northampton, the home of Bauhaus and Goths!

Music wove it’s way through the veins of our friendship. Our paths criss crossing. At MVC you worked and through Nic we became friends. Our conversations of music and culture. And, as of course did many, many more, I fell in love with you.

To Spinadisc, or back. No better time to work in an independent record shop, vinyl and gigs galore. Your crimped hair, make up and unwashed ripped t-shirts, that I can still to this day almost taste…

The time we shared in the house in Shakespeare Road. Discussions about class and culture morphed into your thesis and eventually your first published book. I’ll never forget that upside down cat of yours, Hephzibah? Those two strange type witches cats that would gang up on my lovely hippy cat TigerLily, bless her. And of course you turned me on to Nick Drake, playing me his music as we sat on the edge of the creaky bed you had made from old, damp, wooden pallets, as is the way of the Goth!

I remember taking the day off work to go and support you at your first lecture up Boughton Green Road. And it was obvious that academia was always going to get you, Professor Nathan Wisefellow, you were a natural, a showman, a thinker, a romantic, ever the sharer of your vast knowledge on popular culture. With words longer than I could spell or ever know the meaning of.

I saw you play in bands, and sometimes I did so with toilet roll in ears.

We holidayed in Wales, and camping with children together. Spent many a Hallowe’en trick or treating around Moulton. Gosh, my children adore you. The photos of our families visiting the church yard in Tanworth-In-Arden still among my favourite.

I was over the ‘pink’ moon when you asked me to do the photography for your Nick Drake book, I was very cheap, and our odyssey began as we journeyed to places most relevant. An absolutely wonderful few days. Poshest of Marlborough, you fitted right in, and store rooms to see memories of Nick few had seen before. Booked in for a night at Danny La’Rue’s hotel?! Ha ha. We rested and laughed. But I wasn’t laughing for long as we shared a twin room and very little sleep I got as was woke by your snoring!!! A night spent reading your manuscript on the bathroom floor was my payment for a hard days photography shoot.

And to Nick Drake’s Cambridge. Walking the same steps and over bridges.

We looked in awe at the building that was Sound Techniques Studio in Chelsea, and drank beer in the pub opposite. Joe Boyds Witchseason office in Charlotte Street where we were accused of being Jewish undercover agents; my nose and your name didn’t help matters, but eventually we were invited in for a cup of coffee and look around.

The iconic alley in Hampstead Heath, a morning that ended on a tube train and a beautiful girl opposite unbeknown blew our minds, as she pulled out of her bag a Nick Drake CD, and smiled our way. We turned to each other with hairs on hairy necks standing, the serendipity of the moment, You with grin said ‘Well, that’s got to be a good omen’

Our lives got complicated, the romance and dreaming swallowed by the realisation on how fucking hard it all actually is. Decisions, make waves on other peoples lives and the darkness seems to swallow the light.

I didn’t see so much of you this past year, which never meant you were forgotten. You’ll be my friend forever. Never again will I take for granted a thing so precious as something as special as you. I’m not saying you never annoy me, ha, of course you did you bloody fool! But I love you. I’ll miss you. I’ll cry for you. And I’ll laugh too. And as if Nick Drakes music wasn’t melancholy enough it now takes on another sodding dimension, so thanks for that!

There will be a hole for ever in all of us. Hope you have found your peace my beautiful friend.

Just one last musty hug would do

“Now we rise / And we are everywhere.”

Music Is Love

You can stream the mix below or download by visiting Soundcloud

03 2018 : Dissolving The Fear, Finding Your Own Beauty

O Mistress Mine - Marcus Allen
O Mistress Mine – Marcus Allen

From the album by Marcus Allen, Bobbin Zahner, Peter DuPont ‎called Eveningsong – Songs Of Love And Moon-Filled Nights

This track contains the lyrics of William Shakespeare:

O Mistress mine, where are you roaming?
O, stay and hear; your true love’s coming,
That can sing both high and low:
Trip no further, pretty sweeting;
Journeys end in lovers meeting,
Every wise man’s son doth know.

What is love? ’Tis not hereafter;
Present mirth hath present laughter;
What’s to come is still unsure:
In delay there lies not plenty;
Then, come kiss me, sweet and twenty,
Youth’s a stuff will not endure.

William Shakespeare, Twelfth Night, II, iii (1602)

Kaa, voiced by Scarlett Johansson.
Don’t You Know What You Are? I Know What You Are. I Know Where You Came From – Scarlett Johansson

Kaa, voiced by Scarlett Johansson.

The Place Beyond The Pines (Music From The Motion Picture)
Ninna Nanna Per Adulteri – Ennio Morricone

From the soundtrack to the film The Place Beyond The Pines

Fleurs Laissés Dans Un Taxi – CFCF

Released in 2016 On Vacation from
International Feel Recordings ‎– IFEEL051

Lucrecia Dalt Tar
Tar – Lucrecia Dalt

With the quietly nimble ambient-cumbia-avant-pop of Tar, the all too seldom-heard Lucrecia Dalt preps the ground for Anticlines, her highly promising début album for RVNG Intl

Buy from Boomkat

Margaux Buchanan ‎– James
James – Margaux Buchanan

B side of Little Girl on Loose End Records ‎– LE 102

Lazy Ways – Marine Girls

British post-punk/indie pop band formed in 1980 in Hatfield, United Kingdom and disbanded in 1983.
Members :

  • Jane Fox (bass)
  • Georgina Hartman (vocals, percussion)
  • Alice Fox (vocals, percussion)
  • Tracey Thorn (guitar, vocals)

Leaves Of Spring - Weekend
Leaves Of Spring – Weekend

British Indie Pop Post Punk band formed by Alison Statton following the split of Young Marble Giants in 1981.

N.I.T.A. – Young Marble Giants

From the album Colossal Youth

Limestone / H Takahashi

Enter – H Takahashi

From the album Body Trip on Constellation Tatsu ‎– PURR 006

Get on Bandcamp

Random Security – Gigi Masin & Alessandro Monti

From Gigi Masin & Alessandro Monti ‎– The Wind Collector

Full Ashram Devotional Ceremony (Volumes IV - VI)
Full Ashram Emerging Theme – Happy Meals

The inaugural release on Optimo Music’s new “So Low” imprint is from Glasgow’s much loved Happy Meals, a duo comprised of Suzanne Rodden and Lewis Cook and is their second album release after 2014’s acclaimed “Apero” on Glasgow’s Night School label.

Full Ashram is the name of Happy Meals’ recording studio. The Devotional Ceremony is Happy Meals connecting with their cosmic inner selves. They realise their Full Ashram Devotional Ceremony, banishing demons, devils and ill will. Devote your soul to the positive forces before the misguided, suffering spirits pull you down and wipe you out.

While the album is comprised of individual tracks segueing into each other, for full salvation it is recommended to be listened to as one continuous session.

Released June 30, 2017

From Bandcamp

Dissolving The Fear, Finding Your Own Beauty - Ram Dass
Dissolving The Fear, Finding Your Own Beauty – Ram Dass

Audio lifted from a short film featuring Ram Dass on coming out of the darkness and overcoming our feelings of unworthiness in order to feel safe in the presence of love. However you arrive in this moment, if you can accept that you are lovable, the feelings of fear dissolve.


Sonoko ‎– Les Anges, Les Bonheurs
Danse Avec La Tristesse – Sonoko

From Sonoko ‎– Les Anges, Les Bonheurs on STROOM STREP-009

Fantastic Garden by Rhucle
Rigid Hornwort – Rhucle

Fantastic Garden can be found on Bandcamp

White Bird – June11

Another LP out on STROOM : Jan Van den Broeke ‎– 11000 Dreams

Stares Into The Blue – Laura Barton

I’m in love with Laura Bartons voice. there I have said it. It melts like chocolate in my ear goggles and leaves me all gooey.

Borrowed from the BBC series ‘Notes From A Musical Island’

Check them out ~ BBC

02 2018 : Journey From Eden for Balearic Social Radio
Unicorns In Paradise – Laraaji

From the simply divine Laraaji ‎– Celestial Music 1978-2011 

The Rainbow – Talk Talk

The mighty Talk Talk ‎and off the Spirit Of Eden album

Black Sabbath ‎– Paranoid
Planet Caravan – Black Sabbath

From Paranoid

Nick Drake ‎– Five Leaves Left
River Man – Nick Drake

From Five Leaves Left

Check out Nick Drake: Dreaming England (Reverb) Paperback – 1 Sep 2013 by Nathan Wiseman-Trowse

Nathan Wiseman-Trowse
See You On The Other Side – Nathan Wiseman-Trowse

Tributes to Dr. Nathan Wiseman-Trowse

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